I had a class running now..a pertanian class..one of the most mundane and monotonous university course that we are FORCED to take..well, the pertanian days are coming to its end wit the arrival of the end of the sem..( OMG..speaking bout end of sem..FINAL SEM!!! )..and the thing is that i am the group leader and i am suppose to present today..but instead of being in the lecture hall..i'm here in the lib typing my blog and listening to music by 911 ( i doubt do they still exist?? ) haha..actually..i have been walking 3 times out from the dk..coz it is damn boring inside..the rest of the group..haiz..i think they love pertanian so much..coz they are willing to prepare 106 slides full with words..omg...i think that to most of them - it is their FIRST TIME of reading it..haha..k.kk..nvm..let them enjoyed reading the slides while i enjoy typing my blog..till i receive the "ur turn next" miss call from my team ..haha
ya..ya..sorry..i know i promise on something bout friendship..but i juz dun know what is wrong with me.. yesterday and today..i was kind of like a little down..i dun really know is it the incidence of quarreling yesterday that resulted like this? i dun think so..juz that i have been thinking a lot..and many things flash through my mind..eventually make me to be in an emo state and u know..juz lose interest to type a long long blog..(sorry fella..u know la..to produce a good essay need a good mood to type..now is juz not the time )..even today also..still kind of moody..i guess i need so happiness injection..i juz feel something is wrong within me..and i juz dunno how to express it out..haha..i guess if joe u r here..u will grab me by my collar..and u will push me right up the wall and knock my head with ur 5 cm thick file..sorry..juz lose the positivity within me..i guess there is juz nothing that can make me laugh and happy..my old friends are far..my recent friends..um..um..ok la..my juniors are busy..juz no interesting things that happen that can carve a smile on me...the positivity is juz gone..haiz..
someone..pls make me smile back..please..please..
but some people are really sweet..thanks ben..u r really my best friend...i appreciated ur concern ..thanks to yiyan as well (although i haven't see u for today)..and this is wat my junior send to me "juz wan u to noe whenever ur feelin down or unhappy..we r here for u ya"..wow..those are really sweet..why good people like this are so few? why bad people (like me) are so many..haha..joking k..juz to let u all know that thankz for ur concern and i really appreciate u guys and gals..(still emo)..
and one good news..(or rather bad)..my presentation is postponed..to after raya..i dun know wheter it is a good thing or a bad thing..damn i din study yesterday whole day juz to finish up the slide..looking for all photos of herbs and thinking hard for lame jokes to crack during the presentation..after raya..i dun think i will remember all those jokes anymore..(thankz to a bunch of other course people that wan to hijack the dk that we r using..)..still..nothing to be happy.
perhaps it is true..one great psychiatric once told me that i have the tendency to analyse why people behave in such a way..and that i will keep thinking..think a lot and alot and alot..and usually it will be why why why..sometimes..ya..i admit.it is really making me go insane..
i have a secret that i cannot share with anyone..but i juz wan to let u all know that i almost misunderstand someone and almost got angry of someone..(not almost..alr had)..due to misunderstand..thanks to my great thinking..man..can i juz shut all thinking for one moment..still nothing to be happy about..
i will be fine..dun worry..i juz need some time to cure up and find things that can carve back the smile on my face..sorry all my dear friends..i dun mean to make things so sorrow with my presence..but i juz can't help it..i'm even having difficulty to pretend to be happy..haiz..
give me some time..i will be back with full positivity again..
thanks again for the concern and care..
by the way..is there any way i can check who viewed my blog coz i really wan to know who viewed my memorial page..and those who left comment..i am copying up all the comment and leave it as zero..so that no one will critisize me badly.. :P
