Do you believe that when u miss something or someone great enought..that thing or that person will somehow appear in ur dream..the power of subconscious mind so called..
but i do believe on that..not to mention that i dream of the gal that i miss so much..but today..i had a prety funny dream.. i dream about my life in the good old days..way back in my secondary school..in the school that i treasure the most..SMK gajah berang..labor omnia vincit..
my dream was kind of pretty funny..coz in that dream..i was in a class..an english class..and my english teacher..Mr Mani..somehow appear in my dream as well ...and he was teaching us english..and asked us to write an essay..and i was sitting on the left hand side..searching for my essay book..and at my back..were my friends..adric..joshua..siew..and the rest..it was somehow really true to me..and i even dreamed that there are alcoholic drink on my table..red wine and prune drinks..haha ( ok..that makes the dream so not true anymore..coz as far as i know..if i had alcoholic drink in GBS..i would certainly be stopped as early as i am about to step into the school..those pengawas is damn efficient..)..and so that is my dream...
and truthful enough..i was really kind of mising my school-ing time..waking up at 6.30am in the morning..after my father past away on 2002..i had this habit of not taking breakfast anymore coz no one prepare it for me..except when my mom is at home..and i always lack of sleep..coz i usually wil be back home around 6pm in the afternoon and i wil sleep till around 10pm or 11pm..and then i will wake up.and study until 3 or 4 am before i go to sleep again..( that explain why even now i still use to stay up til 3 or 4 am...coz i have been doin that for the past 8 years of my life...)..and there for..waking up at 6.30am is a tough one..i stil remember how my poor sister sleeping in her room woke up because of my alarm clock..and she wil be shouting for me..asking me to turn off that clock..and so there i went..the "zombie edwin"..grapping my towel..heading towards the toilet and bath..and i stil remmeber that after my bath..i used to put on my school uniform with my eyes closed..( sleeping!! )..haha..and by 6.50am..i headed downstairs..without even goin to the kitchen..i straight away pushed my motor out..and i'm off..
the morning ride is always so nice..the cold breezing air really woke me up.( well of course..i am riding a motorcycle to school..i can't be sleeping while riding if not i wun even be alive now..)..the surrounding which is still dark is really nice..and there i was..heading toward GBS ( Gajah Berang School )..and upon reaching the schooll..there is always a rule that is strictly enforced by the disipline teacher.." DILARANG MENUNGGANG MOTORSIKAL DI DALAM KAWASAN SEKOLAH "...and u know..rules are made to be broken..and so..upon reaching the school..one of the following 3 things will happen..
1. it is still dark..the pengawas has not start duty yet..they have not start guarding the main entrance gate..and so i will break the rule and will ride through the main gate..go to the motorcycle parking side..comb my hair and enter the school..as if nothing happen
2. some of the pengawas alr start duty..and i choose not to care..and will speed through the main entrance gate..riding fast to run away from the pengawas..the pengawas will give a chase..they will chase me until the motorcycle parking site..i will quickly park my motor and run into the school and comb my hair in the toilet..
3. the gate is completely guarded by the pengawas like a strong fortress with the disipline teacher standing at the back with a long brown cane...that time..i will dare not break the rule..coz having that hot brown cane landing on my buttocks early in the morning..well..not real a good way of starting the day..so i give in to the rule..stop before the entrance and push the heavy motor to the parking site..and it suckz!!!!
so one of the 3 things will happen..that is the incidence at the main entrance gate..the first entrance gate..entering into the school compound..there is the second entrance gate..wow..that gbs is really like a bank system..u know..when u wan to go into the safe deposit box in a bank..u will have to go passing through security gates..one after another.and gbs is juz the same..and so..entering into the second gate..and here is usually the pengawas will do spot check..checking on ur beg for drugs..alcohol..cigarette..porn cd..and those illegal stuff in school..including fire crackers and hp..and they will also check on hair..nails..belts..stocking and lots and lots of stuff..hey..u wan to check underwear too????
and so that is the usual day..entering to the school..if the library has not open yet..so i wil hang around with my friends in the canteen..making lots and lots of voice..or even sometimes juz realise that " eh?? alamak..haven't do this homework..shit.." and there goes the photostat machine..and if the lib is open..i am a librarian for 5 years since form 1..and so..i will go to the lib..hang around in the counter area even though it is not my duty day..( my duty day is on tuesday..but u know la..being so "senior" for 5 years..those junior librarian juz dare not to chase u out..)..joke with the ketua harian..sometimes scolding the duty librarian..or even chasing noisy student out..man..those time are so fun..the only moment where we behave is when the pengerusi or the ketua disipline perpustakaan is here...but too bad..they dun come to the lib often..haha..
and gbs also got this stupid system of lining up everyday..at 7.25am..all of us were summoned to line up..so normally we hang out in the lib til 7.45am..to escape that lining up..sometimes in the monday morning where we got the perhimpunan..we also use to hide in the lib..until the perhimpunan start only we go..and sometimes we even hide in the library and nv go to the perhimpunan..hiding our shoe inside the lib..lock the door and off the light..and make completely no sound at all when the guru disipline..mr siew..come and round..well that mr siew..is the only guru disipline that we are so afraid off coz he is so fierce..and he is so anti-librarian coz we are the one that "salah-gunakan our power"..haha..so..being the ketua harian of the day..we normally is given the key to the library and we normally hide there..hahahaahahaa..coz those lining up is so so so darm boring and hot..in perhimpunan is even worst..we have to stand for a freaking long 1 hour plus..sometimes even up to 1 hour 30 minutes..no wonder they have that st john..duty at the back..with their stretcher and the first aid kit..coz in the middle of the perhimpunan..u will see..people faint!! and so far..i have not experience fainting coz it is so ashamed..
and so the class starts..the subjects tat i love the most is sejarah..( hey..sej is my strong sub..i love it so much )..BM..( coz i love the teacher..cik noraini..she is so geng )..and chemistry..i dun like biology coz we never have a permanent teacher teaching us that..coz they think that we are in the first class ..so smart alr.so they nv really teach us..coz it happen to be that those biology teacher are always pregnant or accident or get transfer and wat so ever..so we have limited biology teacher..and most of the time.we are on our own..chemistry by Pn tan lay huah..wow..she is one of the most dedicated teacher i have ever seen in my entire life..although she very cheong hei..and like to keep on repeating on our mistakes in our report..but those repetition really helps coz it make the thing to go into the mind directly..and til today i still can remember the words that she use to say " kalau lukis bikar dengan air..mesti lukis "dash-dash" untuk menunjukkan itu ialah air dan mesti lorekkan lukisan..mesti label and blah blah blah.."...she is a magnificient teacher..
and i love to play truant..meaning i like to ponteng class..coz not to boast around..but i am kind of a busy people..taking position like penolong ketua tingkatan and involve in various activities and program..i spent most of my time running around..and not to mention i am a "teacher's pet "..( that is wat they use to call me )...i spent most of my time in the dewan..arranging stuff..making sure of everything is perfect for events..decorating bulletins..spending time with the computer in the counsellor room..i even help teachers to mark their exam papers..u know..i am a superman in sejarah..and my sejarah teacher..pn ong..usually ask me and my another superman friend to halp mark the paper..and i normally help teacher take book from their car..find someone...go to other class call someone..do this and do that..in conclusion..i spent almost 60 % of my life running from class..haha...the only time i stop running is when mr siew goes on round with that big cane..that is the only time i sit quietly in the class..hahaha..so who say caning in school is not effective???
and the most enjoyable time is pendidikan jasmani..we are so in love with football that we normally bring our own football ( not to mention that the footbal that we brought normally kena rampas by the pengawas..weird..u can't even bring football to school..)...and GBS has this 40 minutes for each class...i think most of the school also like that..and 40 mintues is really not enough.so wat do we do..we appreciate every minutes of it..for example if the PJ class on 10am..by 9.45..no matter wat class is it..( ok..i pity the teacher at 9.45am )..coz no matter wat they are teaching..we will change our clothes in the class..we wil either one hand writting and one hand wearing our clothes and change our trousers while listening..well..the victim is always the gals..coz they are so not use to seeing boys underwear that they are so distracted.haha..but most of the time..we wore the pj shorts inside..so we juz need to take off the outer green trousers without showing the underwear...see ..we are so considerate.haha
and pj..is all about kicking football..and it is damn nice..
when the school ends at 2.05pm..we will hang out..either in internet cafe..play counter strike..or we stayed back and played football til 5pm in the evening..not to mention on tuition and activities..so my days are like below
monday - Ms Sheow's add math tuition
Tuesday - Free
Wed - Mr Omar's BM and Sej tuition
Thursday - Cadet activities
Friday - Ms Sheow's add math tuition
Sat - Mrs Bak's English tuition
Sunday - Mr ( forget name alr.. :P ) 's fizik tuition
ok..call me a freak...so many tuition but they do help me score with straight A1 in my SPM..and i love all of the tuition...Ms SHeow add math tuition is the most packed class that i ever attend..so small room and yet so many people..we normally stuff ourselves so pack like sardine and sit right up to the door..and there u go..ms sheow is juz coming in..and she is a big big size fellow..and we have to go out again in order to give way..haiz..why dun't u enter earlier?? haha..but her add maths is so so excellent..love her so much..mr omar tuition is fun..we used to crack a lot of jokes there..sitting at the last row..we usually get scolded for making to much noise..haha..and we usually spend 30 minutes for the break time although we are only given 10 minutes..haha..mrs bak english is fun..she is a very old lady..but very good in english..teaching us a lot and a lot ...and through her..my english improved a lot..thanks mrs bak..love ya..
and the free times on tuesday and wednesday is where we hang out..play football..and others..cadet activites include marching..commando training..combine meet..i am the commander in charge and i juz enjoyed having that group of 20 over people to stand still waiting for my instruction..haha..
and GBS is where i met my first love ever..zi-ning..she wasn't in GBS since form 1..she entered GBS in form 4..coz she was in a gal school, IJC during form 1 til form 3..only form 4 is when she joined us..and her presence is the begining is kind of odd..coz u know..those in form 4..most of it..we alr built a stong bond of friendship since form 1..and having zi-ning and her another friend..ying hui..suddenly 2 stranger in the class is kind of weird..but we eventually get become great friend as time goes on..
and form 4 is a very funny one..coz we dun have a permanent class...all we have is floating class..meaning that we float around..we stay in the chemistry lab..and when other classes wanted to use the lab..we exchange class..they go our class and we go to their class...and i and her usually sat together..starting from form 5 is where we had a permanent class and is so happened to be that she was sitting right in front of me..and ben was on my side..and in front of ben is her currect gf, ying hui who happen to be zi-ning best frient..the square box that i mention in previous blog..remember? and we had a hell of a fun time..and when zn and i started on relationship..the remaining tuesday and wed free time is occupied..no more football..internet cafe or wat so ever..instead we wil be spending our time together in the class alone..very funny..the rest of my friend..they purposely leave the class and go to the canteen to allow us together.haha..( so touched by their action..love u all..)..and there is another rule in gbs that dun allow a couple to berdua-duaan in school area..every afternoon..the duty teacher will check..and since i am quite famous in my school..with most of the teacher knew me..i usually been given the " green light" to remain berdua-duaan in the class..even though i am caught red-handed in class..with zn..but they juz believe me when i say that we wan to study..so who say that being a teacher's pet is something bad? at least they trust me and allow me to break the rules..yeah..i so so love my school and the teachers..
and so everything ends by 5 or 6pm..riding my motor back to my home..bath..eat..sleep..and woke up at 10 or 11pm..study..do my homework..and watch football in tv...and sleep at 4am or 5am..and the cycle start again in 6.30 am...
so that is basically me in my school life..and it is true..that school life is so much great and better than work life..it is the time where
1. we learn a lot of thing
2. we play most of the time
3. we got no responsibility
4. we can run away from classes
5. we can pikat gal of any kind
6. we have enough time to fall in love
7. we can kick as many football as we want or play basketball as long as we wan
8. we can run away from class
9. we can do mistake and get caned
10. we see many people everyday
11.we do different thing everyday
11. we can enjoy fully
compare those above with working life..u wil only see the same group of people..doin same thing everyday..cannot do mistake or we will be sue or jail..cannot play as much as we can..since we earn income, we have responsibility..cannot run away from jobs..cannot play much..
so conclusion..growing and becoming adults is SUCKZ!!!!
that is why i give up my JPA scholarship on pharmacy and took medicine..coz at least i will be facing different patient and do different procedure everyday..and it is a life long learning of course..
so that is my good old days and till today..u bet that i miss every second of it..i miss every single event and i miss every single people there..
i still remember..the last day of the school in form 5..i and my friend.we spend a 3 hours going around..thanking every teacher that we met..shaking hands with them..giving them goodbye cards..i broke with tears when listening to my beloved teacher wishing for us...hugging them..man..all of this is so nice...
and when the spm result is out..i still remmeber that all of us..the all the form 5 students at that moment..we are waiting ..anxious in the dewan..all of us..underline according to our classes..and there it goes..the principle and his assistant..walking up the stage..and i can still remember wat the principle said..
" sekolah kita, GBS, sebagai sebuah sekolah harapan telah mendapat keputusan yang amat cemerlang untuk SPM pada tahun ini..saya amat berbangga dengan pencapaian semua pelajar yang telah bertungkus-lumus dalam peperiksaan kali ini..dan berikut, saya akan bacakan nama pelajar yang mencapai keputusan paling cemerlang, straight A1 dalam spm kali ini.."
"yang pertama sekali.."
our heart is beating real fast..most of us are grapping the hand of the others..sweating and waiting,..
" EDWIN TAN TIOW YONG "..
and for one moment..i was paralyzed..i was blur..while my friend grapped me by the shoulder..some grap my collar and congratulate me..as i slowly gained my senses and walking towards the stage..and i can hear the clapping..the clapping echoed throughout the hall as i stepped forward, being the first name to be called upon..i was happy..shaking hand with the principle..took my slip and goes down ...there was a total of 30 oever people that is called up the stage...
but that time..my gf at the time..zn..she was in tears knowing that she slipped on one subject..her bio was A2..and she was so dissapointed..my happiness turned into sadness because i knew how much she had put in..all the effort..we were studying together..we put a lot and a lot of effort into it..and that that point..i do not stay back for the photo session and i do not go around wishing and congratulating others..as i grabbed her and we walked away..leaving the hall..i knew that she was so sad and all she wan is to leave the hall..and i followed her..
and the last day of the school..i sat alone in my class..5 science 1..i was there alone at 5pm..staring tat the green blackboard..at the teachers table..at the empty desks and chairs where my friends use to sit..looking at the back "papan kenyataan" that we use to decorate..looing at the fan that looks like goin to drop off ever since we use the class..staring outside to the left is the basketball court looking at a bunch of guys playing basketball..and to right ourside is the green field where we use to kick football..and in the middle of siting and reminisce..
i knew..
that my day in the school is over..my days in GBS finally come to an end.
tat time i dunno whether i will be back for form 6 or go to matrix..
but i do realize that i have completed my secondary life..and that i have leave a memorable memory ..i have scored well..and i have won the greatest award of my school.."The Tan Sri Rahim Noor Award of Excellence Winner 2005"...and i have my name carved in the Hall of Fame of my school hall...and there it remain for eternity..
GBS life is fun..it is the time where
1. i met my first love
2. the time where i got many friends
3. the time where i knew how naughty is me
4.the time where i gained puberty
5. the time where i knew the meaning of real friends
6. the time where i get to kick as many football as i wan
7.the time where i can play basketball as long as i wan
8. the time where i can involve in various activity
9. the time where i get my leadership quality
10. the time where i become a commander
11. the time where i abuse the power as a librarian.haha
12. the time where i can run away from class
13. the time where i can be teacher's pet
14. the time where i can go internet cafe and play game until i vomit and headache
15. the time where i always get scolded by pengawas
16. the time where i get caned by Mr siew
17. the time where i enjoyed PJ
18. the time where i took part in various program
19. the time where i took part in various activities..
20. the time where i won 4th in sastera quiz..our sastera is so geng
21. the time where i won third in sejarah quiz
22. the time where i won bronze in fizik quiz
23. the time where i took part in kuiz kimia kebangsaan and won nothing..haha
24. the time where i took part in debate
25. the time where i hold various position in library organization
26. the time where i am respected in cadet
27. the time where those junior cadet salute me
and mostly..
it is the time where i learned of who i really am..
and till today..i am very thankful to god..that i was given a chance to be part of such memorable event..to be part of GBS family..and to be having such a great love and friends..
so..that is the the story of my good old days..
so..who say that i forgot about my old days in GBS ??
coz it is where i came from..
my friends.
my life..
and me..
yeah!!
