it has been ages since the last time i visited this page with a heart full with mix emotion..and pouring them out between my lines..one and every bits of it..
right now..i got lots to talk about..but i just dunno where to start..so here goes..
CHAPTER 1
lets talk about my recent condition..for the past few days i had been coughing like mad..non-stop..eventually made my whole condition looks as if i'm a TB patient..well u see..u cough when u have some sort of itchyness deep in ur throat..and once u cough it out..it sorts better...but this time..coughing does not comfort the itchyness..and there u go..me..coughing away..and i ran out of cough syrup..quite dreadful..but kinda funny too..as far as i know..H1N1 involves flu and fever..so thank god i'm not having that..but u know..there are a lotof funny people mixing the facts between cough and H1N1..and today The Star..outbreak of meningitis at JPJ in MELAKA!!!! ( whoa..i used to go there almost 3 times a week..thank god thank god..)..and they are thinking that meningitis is related to that H1N1..come on la..it is totally non-related..bacteria and virus le..i dunno i shud burst into laughter and laugh til i die ..or speechless and knock my head till die..anyway..coughing like mad..not H1N1..haiz..
CHAPTER 2
Again my recent condition..there is no word to express how thankful i am to finally complete my data collection for my research project..it has been weeks of troubles and weeks of argueing...i know that worst part is yet to come..but give me a break..coz i juz finish my data collection..my respondent will mainly be first year and second year medical student..no big deal i know...but there are a few people who are worth mentioning here..thanks a lot to my first year buddy..whom appeared and helped me to influence them to come..to my junior who ponteng for the whole day including lecture by a professor..but purposely came for my research..there is no word to express how happy and thankful i am on u all..for those who give in effort calling their friends from sleep..and for those who called to apologize many many times to me when they really cannot make it..and for those who rushed back all the way juz for it..thank you..thank you to u all so much..i'm so proud to have u all as my junior..thanks..may u all pass ur final exam with flying colour..u all have my blessing and prayer..god bless u all..
and for the second year..not as much as the first year..but i already expected it to happen..stil there a 20 smtg that showed up..again..thanks a lot..
to both first year and second year..thanks again..ur presence means a lot to me..thanks
CHAPTER 3
I am losing my interest on the internet..as i can see..there are more and more people getting addicted to it..with more and more people start to become a blogger..even on those who once said " blogging is pathethic" also start blogging now..realy funny..but as u can see..i had left my friendster a very long time already..and trust me when i said i really hate the new layout of facebook..gosh..i'm losing interest to click on other people name juz to check on their status update..juz uploading photos..tagging and play those games there..i'm losing interest on facebook d..haha..instead dota seems to be more attractive..i know..i'm jerk..i have stop replying mails..and u all hate me for that..haha..and the new layout that i promised ages ago is no where to be seen..haha..the layout thing..in order to obtain what i want..i need a photoshop or photo editor..and that is the problem..haiz..dun worry..will get the new layout real soon..
CHAPTER 4
this will be a little deep..u know..there are things that i cannot express here..and so here i am..being doubt and uncertain..i asked my self..once..twice..three times...and many many times..what i want..where am i heading too..wat am i playing? and that the "train" will not be there forever and that time is certainly not on our side..where am i heading this to? i slapped myself a few times..hopes and shattered glass..is that all that i can offer?? am i playing a game? and i slapped myself..reminding myself that my action is hurtful..and no one deserve that...and i kept on asking the same question..is it true? can it be done? is it possible? am i joking to myself? am i juz having fun on my own..playing in my own world of imagination so far?? is it the time now? will history repeat itself? will it be blessed this time? and many many times..i wanted to be more..i wanted to give more coz i know i can..but yet..i doubt myself..leaving it hanging with no direction to go..i told myself to give in..and stop..but i can;t..it is not as easy as i think it is..and sometimes..i forgot about the feeling..i am uncertain already..
and there i will be..lost in the darkness..
please give me some guidance..anyone..
Alright..fall asleep when typing half-way..desperately need a good night sleep without coughing..
can i?
wait..today got pasar malam..i want to go!!! XD
Good luck to all my juniors and friends who will be sitting for their finals soon..
