Memory Lane: disapointed

ok..i'm a bit moody now..and wat i am about to type will sound slightly "unfair"..so if u r in a "moody-period" too..then this is a piece of blog that u wan to skip reading..

it is a normal tendency that we..u and me..will hunt for the opposite gender ( exception to those of the same gender..gay and lesbian..and those who are "bi-gender" )..that is how we are made..and that is how we are created..ages when god created human being..2 opposite gender..and it has been like that ever since..one male..one female and poops out..one baby..i truly madly understand the fact..

and speaking bout facts..

the facts is we have testosterone..and they have estrogens..

female hunt for male..they have a desire to earn for a man..the more beauty they are..the higher is their aim and desire ( this dun apply to all of course..i know some of fine ladies who are not )...and man ..as usually..will huunt for female..

and yet..sometimes..or shoud i say often that we are use as a puppet..trying to get to us to achieve their real goal..and i am really irritated of it...when it comes to this point..one question usually come to my mind..

"are you taking me as FRIEND ?? "

let get in some examples..

i got a free..male of course..dun send me mails asking for name and initial..coz i'm not planning to carry out a cold war or civil war..lets juz take it as a name..

a friend i suppose..( doubt and stil doubting )...

someone whom i had not met for a time..

and so it is this small gathering that i invited him along..simply because i have not met him for a while and wanted to buy him a drink..as simple as that..

and yet the question that he asked..

" who's goin? "..

and when he knew it was a couple of people wit testosterone..he doubted..and when he knew the the exact amount of only 3 testosterone..no estrogen around..

so there goes the "excuses-machine"..

so fine with me...wat do i care anyway..

and yet i receive the same sms from the same guy..asking me to go out together juz because of one estrogen..i was like..

" u dumped me when u knew that it will only be 3 testoterone..and u r planning a meeting and calling everyone when there is this one estrogen..!! '

and i get furious..

and one more case of my coursemate..

inviting me to play basketball hoping that i would call gals down and play along..

when knowing only me and the other testosterone ( and we badly need people to play along coz only 2 people)..two of us..and there goes the excuse machine again..rejecting by giving various excuses..but when there is estrogen around..he'll be eager in joining..

and again..i was doubtful..

" hey..u call that friends? u dumped people when they need u the most..and u make use of them to get to ur real target.."

wow..let me make this straight..

I HATE PEOPLE LIKE THIS

let make things clear..

i hang around with boys..eat with them..talk n play with them simply because

they are MY FRIEND and i WANT TO

i hang around with gals..eat with them..talk n play with them simply because

they are MY FRIEND and i WANT TO

there is no hidden reason..no hidden target or watsoever people are talking and gossiping..go to hell wit the opinions and gossips..i dun care a damn of it..i live my life the way i wan it to be..and i would not change an inch of it..juz because ur itchy mouth wan to say something on it..

if people are goin to react so much to someone else opinion..then wat difference are we to the puppet hanging on a rope..played by its master..life is not suppose to be like this..

and if u r one of my friend and u r someone who is like that..

making use of people to reach real target..

i am seriously telling u that

I DO NOT MIND LOSING U AS A FRIEND

not only i will not respect u..

i wil look down on u and will not trust u..

tat's all i wan to say..

p/s : testosterone : male

estrogen : female

( thousand apology for this furious expression coz i'm somehow so irritated and angry right now..

if u have any comment or unsatisfactory..do drop a mail at edwin_tan88@hotmail.com )

till then..